MASTER MIND!

Cooper and I love to play Master Mind together. I don't know why I thought of this while playing a stupid game, but I had to do a response for one of my classes on a chapter about problem solving...in life, classroom/teaching, in general, and it made me think about it. The thing is, Im not master of my mind. I let other people's problems/issues control me instead of weighing MY options and what I want. I weigh theirs and end up making a decision based on what they want or need. I often find myself saying "how are they able to do that...and get away with it?" I guess Im jealous. Because in my head, I think that's just who they are and they are just doing what they need to do. It's my problem how I respond to it. Deep down I may think less of them or resent them for it, and that's not fair of me. I must be an enabler. Im afraid (I know) I won't get the same consideration when I do what I want. I don't trust that anyone would be able to do the same for me. It's a pretty interesting concept now that I think about it. It runs my life.